To See You Off

Thinking about the last time we met.
You left in such a hurry.

The cab driver took a wrong turn, which made you late for the flight. You were quite mad at him and you started giving him directions in your deep voice that became deeper since you were angry. Finally, when we reached you rushed towards the gate and I don’t quite remember if we hugged. I looked at you but did not see you reflect back. So I let go of you. And smiled, my heart pounding, eyes slowly welling up. And then, you turned away and started walking. I stood there thinking..

Maybe this is the last time
Or maybe I will receive you here again
Hey! Turn back, smile and wave
What’s the rush?
Don’t you miss me already?

And then you disappeared. I stood there a little longer trying to catch a glimpse of you. But I couldn’t see you anymore so I walked towards the bus station and took a bus. My heart felt empty. I felt angry and a little disappointed.

Why wouldn’t you want to spend some more time with me?
4 out of 365 days is good enough for you?
Not for me
Not for me.

A major red flag. That day was probably the day when I truly felt sad, unloved, and trivial. We were so many time zones apart and you should have taken me to a trip or stayed with me for a few more days. That would have meant a lot. But the queen of your heart commanded you to come back home and you had to obey the command. That day I got a glimpse of my future, but I did not want to see it then.

I don’t know what I feel now
Love or hate or both
But that was indeed the last time I ever saw you
Wish you had taken your leave more amicably
A hug, a quick peck, turn back, smile and wave
Because nothing is certain.

Look where we are now.
Time zones apart
Living different lives
And probably I want it to stay that way
Because if I am not the queen of your heart
I don’t want anything.

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Make Your Peace

Traveling In Time

(Updated the name and few lines – officeboredomblog)

My head hurts. The alcohol, it was too much.
My room smells of the cigarette. I hate it but I still do it!

It’s been raining here.
I sit by the window and think of you.
What were we doing at this time last year?

How have you been darling? How’s the weather?
Is it raining in California too? Has it become colder?
Did you take that trip?

Do I come and go in your dreams?
Or have you made your peace?

The guys I meet are nice.
Good dinner and a few drinks, Sometimes we bond over a song long forgotten.
It’s such a high…
But as the dawn breaks
All I see is your face.

This world of ‘no attachment’ is beyond my comprehension but that’s the trend.
At least that’s what I hear.
It’s the opposite of what I want.
But it’s true, who can guarantee the future?

My dreams, are now ashes.
But ‘m OK, trying my best.
It must be tough for you too.

Hope you are fine darling. I hope you find someone you can stand up for.
Take her to places that we planned.
Give her all the love, as long as you can.
After all, love is so fleeting.

I’ll see you in my dreams.
And when time comes, I will bid my final goodbye.
I will make my peace.

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My head hurts. The alcohol, it was too much.
The room smells of the cigarette. I hate it but I still do it!

It’s been raining here.

I sit by the window and think of you.

What were we doing at this time last year?

How have you been darling? How’s the weather?
Is it raining in California too?
Did you take that trip to Boulder?
Do I come and go in your dreams?
Or have you made your peace?

The guys I meet are nice.
Good dinner and a few drinks, sometimes we bond over a song long forgotten.
It’s such a high…
But as the dawn breaks
All I see is your face.

This world of ‘no attachment’ is beyond my comprehension but that’s the trend.
At least that’s what I hear.
It’s the opposite of what I want.
But it’s true, who can guarantee the future?

My dreams, are now ashes.

But ‘m OK, trying my best.
It must be tough for you too.

Hope you are fine darling. I hope you find someone you can stand up for.
Take her to places that we planned.
Give her all the love, as long as you can.
After all, love is so fleeting.

I’ll see you in my dreams.
And when time comes, I will bid my final goodbye.
I will make my peace.